That kind of night.

If this were a day before Krew and Kade it would look like this.

Drive home

Crawl under covers

Have a good cry

Get up, glass of wine, and sappy movie.

Did something traumatic happen today?? No.

I think its a mix between the lack of sunshine and the end of the year.

People truly have no idea how much stress teachers go through.

It might look like we're getting excited because we really have a little over a month of school left, but inside we are freaking out.

Did I meet this standard?

Are my kids ready for 3rd grade?

What are my kids next year going to be like?

Oh shit I just got them where I want them and now I get to start all over again.....

Just a few thoughts that go through our heads.

Then to top it off one of my dear friends from work was offered another position, and while I am so excited for her I am sad for myself. For our school.

She is by far one of the most amazing teachers I have ever met. She goes above and beyond all the time, and we all look to her for advice, and help. I worry however that when everyone looks to one person it can become too much.

I sit here and cry as I think about helping her pack up her classroom. Not seeing her amazing kids every day, and not hearing her hilarious parenting advice on our lunch time drives.

Her style of parenting is so untraditional, yet I think she should raise everyones children until they are at least 10. She is her kids' best friend, and you can see it in so many ways. I mean what other 18 year old girl spends her senior ditch day with her mom? And what 14 year old boy still confides in his mom and admits his wrongs? And her sweet Kylee such a fireball, yet still so little. I will miss her more than I can put into words, but I know what it is like to want something else.

On to the next bummer part of the day.... sick kids yet again. This time Kade has RSV which is one of the most contagious sicknesses a little one can have, so yep just planning on Krew getting it too. Oh summer please hurry up so all these nasty bugs will go away!

Anyway enough with the negative on to the positive.....

This is not a day before Krew and Kade this is present time. Instead of crawling under my covers I got to give baths, read night time stories, snuggle, and now for bed....at 8, because I'm sure tomorrow will come long before I'm ready. Loving life and all of its ups and downs because I have these two amazing little souls.